Devi Serene

Yeah, so I'm now a Windows 7 user. My brothers finally got round to helping me wipe my PC! Now it runs SO much better, so I'm quite pleased now. ^_^

I would be very suspicious of him/her and have the "Once a cheater, always a cheater" phrase in my head whenever I would be near them (despite my views on giving people a second chance). Maybe it's because of my experience with it - my Dad cheated on my mum, and so they broke up, and I think that they're better off without each other.

( Devi Serene has grown to level 16! )
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Yay, my sweet sixteenth.

Well, it's no big deal really, in fact some things that come with it are an actual hassle. Mainly Ironing, since now I have to iron all my clothes myself. And also I don't get pocket money anymore, so i have to get a job to earn some cash.

But there are benefits too! I can have, and use, a debit card! No more asking for mum's credit card for me. And now, I can buy any 16+ stuff too.

But still, not much has changed other than that. I still have my problems, and I look/think pretty much the same. But I need this day just to enjoy life, and not to think about everything bad. I need to punch my (middle)brother for forgetting my birthday tho!

I could kill the person who had the "great" idea of getting rid of a Chemistry lesson and replacing it with a PE lesson. >_< One year left, Devi, one year left...

(I'll get back into replying/reviewing on the weekend.)

(EDIT): Week2,Thursday,P5 is now therapy - not RS.

I'm both a youngest and a middle child - Being my mum's youngest and one of my Dad's middle. I'm glad that I'm the youngest, since it allows me to be more mature, I think. That probably sounds weird, but I'm able to see the situations my brother's face at a younger age, and learn from their experience. Although being the youngest has also made me angry at seeing how my older brothers were treated differently to me (apparently because they were older, but it didn't seem fair to me - like how my dad gave them £2 a week but only gave me 20p).

When I go to my Dad's I become a middle child, but that's a whole different story, which I don't feel like writing now.

The Internet.

I find it easier seeing if anyone has had the situation I find myself in, and see what they did about it. But it really depends on what the decision I'm taking. For college choice, it's family. For relationships, etc, it's friends.

Thank God for half-terms. I really need a break.

I know I still have Friday to go, but Fridays are never that hard. I can finally get back to the media project, since this week has been so shitty, I haven't been able to draw anything.

I finally lost it with one of my annoyers. It was in Math, and I was just so sick of him pushing at my chair and poking me and tugging my hair that I just got so angry. I just got my pen and stabbed him in the back when he wasn't looking at me. He shouted and stood up, which caused everyone to start laughing. It managed to stop him annoying me for a while, but then they were trying to see how angry I got again.

Anyways... I've finished another GCSE: Citizenship. I got a C in the coursework and I had the exam on Wednesday, which I won't get the grade for ages. I'm not sure how I did, I found some parts quite hard (which now seem SO obvious when my best friend talked about them with me), but I just have to get a C in it. If I get a D, then I've basically failed one GCSE, and obviously I don't want that to happen. Grades are all I have.

I can't even stand up for myself - I just let people walk all over me.

Ugh... why can't people just leave me alone! Who cares if I'm ugly and I walk weird and I'm dyspraxic. Why does it matter so much to them that they have to make my life fucking miserable! One year left, Devi, one year left. In one year, I can say goodbye to all those bastards, and that stupid fucking school. But I honestly don't know if I can live another year of this shit.

What's there to look forward to anyway? Why should I go there, just to be made fun at? Why should I go there, just to be hit, tormented and bitched about? And why don't I do anything about it? I just let everyone hurt me, without a response... I'm just so weak and useless...

A quick apology to everyone because I haven't been on MSN / replied to messages / reviewed the new chapter. Over the past week, I've been rather busy.

I'm pooped, so I'll keep this post short (I just didn't want to miss another update). I've been helping my friend with his media coursework, which is creating a game (like designing for a videogame!). So I probably got more excited about it than him (I don't take media, so I can't do it), and I'm basically doing it with him now. I've been designing the characters (he did short backstories of the characters, which I expanded as well as drew them), as well as some other concepts of the game. And that's what I've been doing this whole week. (and I've done a lot of walking with my best-friend, which has made me really tired)

I'm so tired, and I got to go out of the house tomorrow at 7:30, and I'm not looking forward to that (I just want a long lie-in). I'll get around to doing everything soon tho...

So, tomorrow is the event for the special Shaymin in the UK (in Brighton's Game store anyway), and I'm going to it! I feel kinda lonely, since my best friend can't make it, so I have to go with my mum. I don't really mind going with my mum, but it seems quite sad that I'm going to a pokemon event with my mum. Oh well.

I'm not the biggest Shaymin fan, but THIS Shaymin unlocks the flower for Sky-Forme Shaymin (for Platinum), so I might as well go along for that. Talking of Platinum, I'm also going to pre-order it while I'm there. I already have it in Japanese, but I would prefer it in English. And since my JPPlatinum and Pearl games have had quite strong teams, I plan on having a more coordinator team in ENPlatinum (I remember having Azuzu in my main team during Emerald, but unfortunately she just became too weak). I think it will make the game slightly more challenging, but that will make it more fun. I have a plan of what I want for a team, but I probably won't stick to it.

Anyway, I might be able to get two special Shaymin, so Chaos, if you want it, it's yours. Hopefully I'll be able to get the second one, so fingers crossed!

Everyone has it hard sometimes, so I guess neither has it easier.
Men seem to have it easier, they've been able to vote, get jobs, but they just want to be in power.
Women have had to fight to get our right to vote, access to good jobs, and in the long run, I think that's made us stronger.

But, all in all, we're all human. And all humans have their problems.

My God, it's been a long time.

I've never been good at keeping at things, whatever it may be. Deviant Art (and art in general), writing, going on LJ. But I want to get into Live Journal. There are some things that I need to rant about, or whatever, and I don't care if no one reads them, as long as I get it off my chest.

Now there's just the problem of what to write. Some things I do want to keep private, so that means they're stuck in my real diary. But hey, I'm interested in Gaming, so I could always write about that stuff. And then there's the fun adventures at school too.

But enough talking to myself, I've got stuff to write!

[Most of the stuff is going to be Friends-Only]